I’ve had an interesting life in a lot of ways, good bad and sometimes downright ugly. I attach nothing to it because what is the point in that? I always try and pull something good out of any bad situation, this life is about learning and moving forward.
The hardest thing I ever had to do was learn to forgive, this process taught me I had attached so much negative emotions to some of the things that had happened to me that I was sabotaging myself! What a destructive cycle I was in and trust me it showed in everything about me for a long long time.
I stumbled on MMA when my son was 3, his dad trained and it was something that I felt very I intimidated by. I had experienced terrible domestic violence in the past and I had no desire to get this close to somebody physically, especially a man. My walls were high , too high for me to climb over so nobody or anything else stood a chance.
I walked onto the mats because my son wouldn’t go on without me, my plan was to just encourage him to join in and then I was going to slide off and sit back down. Thank goodness my son was then (and still is now) a stubborn bugger and he made me stay on for the whole class! Best thing I ever did 😁
It has become a huge part of my life and I’m starting to get ready to do my second brown belt grading alongside my son which is amazing! Its opened doors I didn’t even know were there, hence my journey into veganism and personal training.
I no longer recognise the old me, shes been my learning curve and I wouldn’t be who I am today without her but I’ve not been sorry to say goodbye ❤
Today was such a long and complicated thing that by the time it was over I just wanted to come home and throw myself on the sofa and do NOTHING😁
Then I got through the door and two the fun and games began and you know what I should have come home earlier for cuddles and games. No matter how difficult my day is I’m so blessed to come home to absolute unconditional love
I have spent today working and then finally got my backside into gear and did some filming for my personal training course! One huge step closer to being qualified which is something I’ve wanted to do for a really long time.
Afterwards I found a step and just sat soaking up some Ray’s and patting myself on the back 😉.
How much better is the world through the sun? Everybody is smiling and the happy vibes just ooze out of everybody it’s amazing! So sat on my step, just randomly I had a little bit of inspiration as is me really very random 😁